I live far from home and I rarely call unless it’s special occasions like birthdays or Mother’s Day or other special days. Then my mother had brain aneurysm and went into coma. When I was away. The last time I talked to her was on her birthday which was about 2 days before everything happened. She never woke up and that was my last conversation with her.

Afterwards, I found that the only things I kept repeating as I cried near her coffin were “I love you”, “I’m sorry” and “Goodbye”.

It has been 3 months since my mom passed. There are moments when I have things I want to tell her but realize I no longer can (she was the only person I talked to about absolutely everything).

I didn’t call very often when she was still alive. We talked a lot when I did call or fly home though. Even though I didn’t call that much, I can say tell you that I don’t regret it. We had a good relationship even though we only talked occasionally and that’s what really matters.

Calling everyday doesn’t guarantee a good relationship and I personally feel like distance put things into perspective and actually pull people closer :)

Writer by heart. Teacher (English, Yoga, Pilates) by trade. Avid reader. World traveller. Model. You can reach me at agneslouis3108@gmail.com.

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